Reminding song

M. fell in love with me during first year of high school, in 1984/85. We were in a same class and, as usual for me then, I didn`t noticed her meaningfull staring at me, and secret smiles she gave me here and there. Then she told her best friend what she felt and in less than hour whole class was after me. I was confused, what, who, what are they talking about, then I looked at her and saw a truth in her eyes. But all this publicity bothered me, I was shy and insecure on myself and I ignored her. No matter what she tried I remained uninterested. It was almost the end of the school year, a lot of other things to think about and all that noise calmed down.
It was around June 20th, the school was over, I was sitting in my room listening radio. There was that song playing, a real hit of that summer and suddenly I have found myself calling her. We spoke for some time, made arrangements for a date… It was so nice, I felt nice. Sweet little M. :happy:
About two weeks later she went with her parents to a summer holiday, I went to Croatia to visit my grandma and spent there next 6 weeks. On returning back to Belgrade nothing felt as it was before. I felt different. Also, after so many days I thought she has probably forgotten me, so why to bother. Right? How wrong I was.
September 1st, new school year, and she wasn`t there, I have heard two girls mentioning her, saying that she changed school. Well, it was OK for me, anyway. But, the same evening, on my way out of school I saw her standing there, waiting for me. I was surprised and… I don`t know why, I pretended not to see her, just passing by to my bus station. Next evening she was there again. And again. Every single evening of that week she waited there just to see me, hoping that I will come to her…. but I never did. Then she disappeared.
Next time I saw her was in 1988, at the end of the 4th year of high school. The whole class was in Dubrovnik, Croatia on some excursion. I saw her one evening, walking down the street with her boyfriend, holding hand in hand, laughing. Sweet little M. was beautiful. We passed by each other and I don`t think she noticed me, but then again, I couldn`t be sure. Maybe I just got what I deserved.
I have never seen her again or heard anything about her. And I wouldn`t probably write this but I have heard that damned song again…..

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26 Responses to Reminding song

  1. ricewood says:

    Yes, my friend. Isn't life just strange, vitalizing, impossible, beautiful, unjust, confusing and absolutely inevitable?Thanks for reminding us, that every time we meet someone, there's a universe of love, hate, failure and success hidden in that person. Thanks for the brief insight in your personal universe. This is possibly why we are blogging. To get a glimpse of the core of the other person.

  2. Spaggyj says:

    How sweet… Yet so very tragic.

  3. Dacotah says:

    I'm sorry your shyness let her slip away. 😦

  4. ellinidata says:

    oh ,our young age it can be so innocent, still we can be so ignorant at the same time..experiences of our youth that areso important to remember so we never repeat the same mistake as an adult, if you find the one that makes you have a few heart beats skipped, don't count money or her looks..just count the feelings, her intellegence and always go for it!!beauty comes and goes,money can disappear over night..feelings always will stay ..intelligence too…thanks for the :heart: felt post.

  5. Cois says:

    Shame really..Got something similar but not exactly..Reflecting back can sometimes be so hard.. Wishfull thinking and whatnot..

  6. Dacotah says:

    Ahem. πŸ˜€

  7. gdare says:

    Kimmie – back then I didn`t thought it was so tragic, only that things in our lives got leveled in one point, every injustice got its justice at the end;Alan – exactly, when we meet someone important for us, our whole universe is changing and everything becomefocused on that person; thank you, I like the way you put it :up:Angeliki – I am glad I have experienced that when I was very young; later I have met girls that meant to me much more than she was back then; but she stayed in my mind forever because it was me that did wrong; I was probably too young and too proud of myself, having the world right in front of me….. :)Clint – my memories are always hunting me; some things I cannot forget even though it would be easier for me sometimes….

  8. Dacotah says:

    No problem. πŸ˜€ Some shyness left? You mean stayed? πŸ˜€ πŸ˜†

  9. gdare says:

    Carol – sorry, it seems I skipped your comment πŸ˜€ I was very shy when I was young; sometimes, when a girl aproached me first and start to talk, my tongue became a knot and I couldn`t say a simple word; then she will left πŸ˜† probably thinking how weird I must have been; then it started to change but some shyness has left and this is probably why I am still single πŸ˜† πŸ˜†

  10. gdare says:

    Err, yes, sometimes I understand English in a different way πŸ˜†

  11. Dacotah says:

    πŸ˜€ Me too, and I speak, read and write English. πŸ˜€

  12. ellinidata says:

    did you see her in the reunion??

  13. gdare says:

    Carol – :)Angeliki – no, she changed school after first year;

  14. Dacotah says:

    πŸ™‚

  15. rose-marie says:

    I agree with Kimmie. It's such a sweet, yet a little sad story. Stupid pride and/or shyness getting in the way… C'est la vie, right?Ps, Finally a song I remember too :whistle: :p.

  16. gdare says:

    Rose – true, takav je ΕΎivot (c'est la vie) :)I am glad you remember this one, make me feel younger πŸ˜†

  17. attilasoul says:

    This is such a sad little story – it's so hard to imagine her stading there every day for an entire week – and that you managed to ignore her. She must have been shy too since she didn't approach you. :)I remember this song as well. I like it. :up:

  18. gdare says:

    Tilla – I guess we both were too young :worried:Atlavon – hey, it seems that I am not the only one with story like this :left: :right: In time, I stopped thinking about it in a bad manner; I was happy it happened and I had possibility to learn something…

  19. atlavon says:

    :awww: takes me back to not so happy times.. Sad story..

  20. decaspecht says:

    Nice history πŸ™‚ it was so worth reading.

  21. decaspecht says:

    πŸ˜‰

  22. gdare says:

    Thank you :happy:

  23. Capegirl says:

    sometimes i really MISS being this stupid πŸ˜†

  24. gdare says:

    πŸ™„ πŸ˜†

  25. sanshan says:

    Ah, but you didn't really know yourself then. Now you do, and look what has happened. πŸ™‚

  26. gdare says:

    Yes, I am much happier now :happy:

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